Mila: Blog Entry 6 – Ego, Patience & Love
I used brutal force for everything in life. I’m assertive with decisions and I’m an aggressive problem solver. All the qualities you would like in a corporate life leader, or a boxer. However, I am no longer either. I am finally searching my own path and with that comes trusting the flow of life and patience. I knew I didn’t have patience for certain things, but I found a hundred more things I had no patience for once I started YTT. I tried to take is easy and give it patience, but I was forcing patience as well! The day I gave up and let go of my expectations was the day I sprained my wrist. I began understanding patience and love for your body. Everything happens for a reason, and the wrist injury was a blessing in disguise. Unable to do majority of the practice, I had to take a back seat and watch. Which would have driven me crazy four weeks ago. But I was surprisingly okay. I understand I need to heal, love my body, understand it’s doing its best; this takes time. I understand I pushed it when I knew my muscles were tired, but my ego and stubbornness got the better of me. Mila 200 Hour YTT Nov’19
Mila: Blog Entry 5 – Breathing Techniques
Being in the fitness industry I always knew breathing was crucial throughout workouts and sports. Due to this I’m always aware of my breathing however I never practiced breathing techniques like Ujjayi, Nadi Shodhan, Kapalbhati. After trying a few rounds properly and focused, the feeling afterwards is so different from one another. I didn’t think something so ‘simple’ or ‘basic’ in life could have such an impact on the state of mind, body and soul. I have a new found respect for breathing. I have realized now my breathing has slowed down when I am resting, I do not require as much air when I’m teaching classes, I’m not losing my voice or gasping for air at the end of classes. And I am able to control it better overall. Mila 200 Hour YTT Nov’19
Mila: Blog Entry 4 – Pratyahara
In the past I had malabsorption of my surroundings and poor attention span. I could have a deep conversation but if a fly appeared that’s it, I’m gone. I’d take everything into myself from the external forces, however now it has finally reversed. I feel I am able to have my own thoughts, opinions and not be swayed by external forces. I am able to also focus on one task at a time. I began walking slower and tried not to multitask when unnecessary. Focusing on the task at hand, making me more present, more engaged, more focused. In the mornings we sat and breathed, hopefully meditating. Starting days I could hear cars, think silly thoughts, feel numb legs. Towards the end, I was able to focus enough to the point where we would come back and everyone was talking about the crazy car outside and I was clueless because I did not hear anything other than my breath, my heart, and silence. I felt lighter, refreshed, at peace. Mila 200 Hour YTT Nov’19 Weekday
Mila: Blog Entry 3 – Being Present
Due to all the ‘mess’ in my life in November, I have now exceeded my own expectations of myself towards being able to handle different elements in my life. I was able to compartmentalize and be present in everything I did from work to YTT to visiting my sister at the hospital. At times it was difficult not to think about my sister in the hospital and that mean thing my mother said this morning. But I lived in the moment and for that, I have appreciated evert second way more than I usually would. I wasn’t thinking of what I did or what I will do, simply ok now we yoga with Jess. Place everything else to the side, place my yoga brain front and center and dig out the love for that moment. Key was that, finding the love in everything I did. Mila 200 Hour YTT Nov’19 Weekday
Mila: Blog Entry 2 – Energy
The 200hr YTT takes up a large part of the day, I arranged my working schedule around it – teaching boom at 7am and my clients in the evenings. I thought I would have enough energy to juggle it all. Except, I did not plan foresee the unexpected turns in life. I began by getting food poisoning the night before and spending day 1 of YTT in the hospital! Two days later my sister got ill, and I have to take care of her. I discovered there are many different levels/types of energy in me. I learned how to be able to give an inspiring personal energy to my clients, an encouraging and hyped energy to my boom classes but also have enough good and pure energy to handle my own practice and my sister. I definitely learned how to recharge efficiently through meditating and doing small things to lift me up. I am in charge of my energy fully. This realization (as simple as it sounds) unlocked many doors for me. Mila 200 Hour YTT Nov’19 Weekday
Mila: Blog Entry 1 – Mind Body & Soul
When I first began the course, I knew my flexibility was going to be my downfall, which it has been so far. I wasn’t too worried about strength, but the strength I have is for explosive sports and weight training rather than smooth graceful controlled movements. There were times I found many more layers to myself. When facing poses that challenged my body; my mind was saying “We can for sure do this for sure” while my body was at its physical limit and shakes would appear. My ego would take a hit when I would fall out of the pose, and an overwhelming feeling of frustration and disappointment would rush over me. However, at a deeper level my soul was lifting me up and telling me its ok, this is where I am now my body its reacting to being pushed in a new way. My best right now is good enough. Keep moving forward. Mila 200 Hour YTT Nov’19 Weekday
